Memang perjalanan qada' dan qadar itu telah ditentukan Allah SWT...terutamanya soal jodoh pertemuan, rezeki, ajal maut dan tanah kubur itu sudah pun tertulis di Luth Mahfuz. Agak sukar untuk saya betul-betul memahami...sememangnya, saya memahami tetapi ada sedikit rasa sukar untuk dimengertikan. Ini kerana, ada juga kata-kata dari Allah SWT bahawa, 'takdir' itu boleh diubah.... ye, memang ianya boleh diubah dengan berdoa pada waktu-waktu yang mustajab, doa-doa kita terus sampai ke atas kepada yang Maha Esa dan boleh diubah juga dengan usaha-usaha kita. Tidak dinafikan, ianya juga boleh diubah...sejauh mana ianya boleh diubah daripada apa yang telah tersurat dari azali, wallahualam, hanya Allah SWT sahaja yang maha mengatur segala jalan penceritaan.
Begitulah takdir anak kucing yang baru sahaja di sebut tentang dirinya, Prince Aliff, sedikit cuma (di blog ketika pemergian Prince Boboy Adzim)...yang baru sahaja malam ini, sekitar, jam 11.38malam 15 June 2016...juga telah meninggalkan keluarga saya sebentar tadi. Beliau hanya mengalami jangkitan selsema dan telah pun disuntik vaksin dan ubat rawatan demam sejak beberapa hari lepas. Mungkin itu takdir Allah yang lebih terbaik untuk nya....
Yes...I was really sad..and still am sad, but 'redha' dengan apa yang berlaku. Teringat ketika beliau sakit sebelum ini dan telah pun recover dengan sihatnya. Pada waktu itu, saya banyak juga menjaga dan merawat beliau dan Alhamdulillah, beliau telah sembuh. Namun, ketentuan dugaan kali kedua...beliau jatuh sakit jangkitan 'flu virus'...walaupun telah diberi ikhtiar, namun kali ini dia tidak mahu tinggal di sini lagi... :(
Hembusan nafas terakhirnya juga agak lebih kurang seperti Boboy...ketika saya pergi melihat dirinya untuk pastikan perkembangannya...saya fikirkan, Aliff hanya nampak agak penat sedikit. Rupa-rupanya itulah mungkin nafas terakhir Aliff...berdekatan kamar kucing di ruang makan utama. Tak perasan itu hembusan nafas terakhir, sebab saya cepat-cepat beredar untuk memikirkan bagaimana untuk pastikan Prince Aliff boleh sembuh sepenuhnya.
Ketika di dapur perasaan risau dan sedih mengganggu diri saya....teringat segala kenangan keriangan beliau bermain-main dengan kucing-kucing yang lain. Prince Aliff memang bijak, gemar bermain dengan anak patung rabbit, bottle top, small ball, etc. Dia sememangnya aktif, sesuai dengan warna bulunya 'sunshine orange'....dan ada corak-corak istimewa di badannya...salah satunya ada tulisan kalimah "Allah" pada sebelah kanan, dan ada beberapa lagi lakaran unik pada bahagian-bahagian badannya. Sempat saya mengambil beberapa gambar beliau dengan kucing-kucing yang lain. Ingin saya muatkan gambar-gambar Aliff di sini....will do that soon, once my Tab is ok (this is another story....for this Ramadhan)
Anyways, Aliff...Mummy wishes you the best life ever up there with someone who borrows you forawhile to me....your TokAbah rescued you from our rooftop home in Shah Alam, while you were just only 3 days old (roughly). They told me you were crying so loud 3 days and 3 nights...without them knowing where were you then. Luckily for us to have discovered you there and got a chance to know you even for just a short while. You are a fighter and a survivor...because Allah wants you to meet Mummy. I was not there then and you were brought back to meet me at a quite long distance journey. Yes, it's raining now....it's a sign that it is one of a "Holy Nights" for this 'gracious month of Ramadhan'...you returns to Allah SWT at a very beautiful night and month. Even though, Mummy cries and wishes that you would be with me much longer...to see you grow up and take care of you, but Allah has much better plans, place, cares for you. It is quite hard to accept, the fact that you're gone after I had just lost Boboy, but I must accept this with 'redha'. I'm sorry Aliff for if there were any lacking of my cares while you were with me....I love you and I pray that you are up there, happily and under a much better cares of the Angels and Allah SWT.
Yes, we are here just for a 'transit' if I may resembles it so. A 'transit' with missions to accomplish, loves to give, happiness to share, lessons to learn and share, and most importantly our mission to suffice ourselves to be qualified to go to Jannah~ A'ddin Heaven (hopefully, where all the Prophets are, wallahualam). It is not easy, 'iman and taqwa' have their ups and down, only ability to seek on going knowledge about Islam will leads us to the 'key' that we are all hoping for. As for me, I know there are still so much more that I need to do for this and also other things in life.
I think, Allah is testing me with this, because I often have fear about 'death'. By facing up to this part and parcel in life, having to deal with it, eventhough it is only dealing with 'lost of pets that I love', it is still giving me a much greater understanding and dealing with my fear. I am sure there are people out there who have to deal with a much greater tests than this....and yes, everyone has their own experience, feelings and lessons to learn.
Yes it is pouring rain again outside there...welcoming the spirit of Prince Aliff back to his 'real home'... Alhamdulillah~
I'll pen off my blog until here for now....till we meet again on my next blog, insyaAllah.
Mummy loves you so much Aliff....so does the rest of our small family! Goodnight and Sweetdreams always, sayang...
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